unicorns and rainbows

8/21(today)  - start progesterone shots
8/26 (Monday) - Embryo Transfer
9/4 or 9/5 - Beta #1


My appointment went well.  Lining was the same.  Well, actually it was measured at 9.8mm which immediately freaked me out because I thought it was thinning.  I almost started crying.  Dr. B assured me that it's fine.  That each time they measure, it's not the same exact place.  And, that the difference between 10 and 9.8 for them isn't even calculated.  He was over the moon that it was that thick and not at the regular 6-7mm that I usually have at this stage.  So, I'm LETTING GO OF THAT STRESS and being happy since the Doc is happy.  Estridol and Progesterone levels were ready go.  So, that means I start my PIO shots (progesterone) today.  I'll be doing those shots EVERYDAY and continuing the estrogen shots every 3 days.  That's a whole lot of shots in my ass!!!! Our transfer is scheduled for Monday 8/26 at 1:30pm.  Hopefully, it's all worth it in the end.... and if it's not...... at least I never have to do those nasty shots, or feel each and every pregnancy symptom caused solely by progesterone again.

I'm currently *thinking* about hopping on a unicorn and riding it over a rainbow, but I'm not quite there.  Nor do I think I can really let myself get all the way to that level of optimism and positivity, but hey, at least I'm thinking about it, right? From this point until about 6dpt is the most positive time for me.  My body has done what it needed to do in order for a transfer to be scheduled.  Everything looks golden right now (as it always does). And, on Monday I will be PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise), which is always a great feeling.   I've gained a teeny tiny bit more hope that this will work and lead to a BFP, then a heartbeat, then a baby bump, then a gender reveal, then a healthy sibling for Tay.  But, I've been at these "picture" perfect cycles for far too long now to be unrealistically optimistic.  So, for now, instead of riding my unicorn over a rainbow, I think I'll just sit and pet the unicorn and look at the rainbow...... anybody following me, or did I lose you all ??? LOL